Posts Tagged ‘Faith’

This year, the Lord revealed truths about Himself to me—
Not in grand gestures and excessively dramatic style,
Not in the form of a burning bush or a speaking donkey,
Not even in the guise of an angel in a dream.
But He showed Himself to me in the little, everyday things—
in verses daily read, in hymns often sung,
in casual conversations, in trivial tasks—
which I think is even more majestic and astounding.
 
This year, He taught me He knows me inside out
And that He’s the best person to teach me lessons—
Never too hard so I’d inevitably fail,
But also never too easy so I’d get too comfortable.
He taught me to fully let go of my life’s steering wheel
And wait on His every turn with patience and complete trust.
He taught me to never doubt His loving care,
To never question why He puts me in situations,
But simply to ask how to best glorify Him there—
How to best bloom in the garden He has placed me.
 
This year He revealed to me matters of the heart,
Teaching me to love more unconditionally His people,
And let go of things that aren’t meant for me.
This year He taught me that letting go doesn’t always have to be painful,
And that painful breakage can be beautiful too.
Like a vessel breaking and showing up cracks,
Only to reveal golden light inside.
 
Yes, this year, God broke my heart—a lot.
But it all turns out to be a beautiful breakage
And, dare I say it, may He prepare me for more heartbreaks.
Because it was when he broke me that I’ve seen—
I am in need of nothing and no one else but Him.
 
This year I learned to be more honest with the Lord—
With how I feel, what I hope for, what I’m confused about,
Things I want to know from Him and of Him.
My relationship with Him grew so much deeper as He taught me
That I can really and literally talk to Him as I would an esteemed friend.
And isn’t He the best person to be friends with!
 
This year I learned to laugh more heartily—
Not because I have no more cares and concerns,
Not because I can see the solution in every problem,
But because I’ve clearly seen how God is very intimately involved in my daily life—
And with a loving and Almighty God writing your story,
Who needs to fret on the plot development and ending?
 
This year I found myself singing along with Horatio Spafford when he wrote,
“Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, ‘It is well, it is well with my soul.”
Has God spared me from traumatic trials?
It is well with my soul.
Has He kept me from getting things I thought I’ve wanted?
It is well.
Has He told me countless times to let go?
It is well. It is well.
 
Because what He ultimately taught me this year
Is that I may never be enough,
But He always is. Always will be.
And I guess that’s the best lesson of all.
 
And so, yes, I’m now facing a new “turn” in the road.
And I can only smile excitedly as I wait to see,
just right there at the corner, what He has in store for me.
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I Have Found Love

Posted: June 22, 2015 in Poems
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I’ve once roamed in many wastelands
and wandered in many wildernesses
in search for all clues and answers
to the question most unsettling.

I traveled far and wide for it,
inquiring from every kingdom.
‘Midst all the conflicting concepts,
which, I ask, is true about love?

Some say one, some say another.
It’s all heartache, says the pessimist;
we need it not, says the feminist,
but for romantics it’s all bliss.

Many would say it’s plain emotion,
and scientists claim it’s brain reaction.
Yet for Catholics it may be charity,
and for Hindus it may be duty.

But only when I went to the holy place
did I discern its real meaning.
Only when I heard God’s blessed word
did I find out–love’s so much deeper.

It isn’t that topsy-turvy romance
the young people usually describe.
It isn’t the skipping of heartbeat,
nor the fluttering of the stomach.

But it’s the Father sending salvation
to those who once rebelled against Him.
It’s the Son descending on humble earth
to wash His people’s feet.

Love–it’s Christ gathering lost souls to Him,
teaching them ever patiently the way;
knowing fully all their darkest thoughts
yet still bearing their flaws perfectly.

I have searched far and wide for the truth
and now have been confronted by it.
But as I try to grasp it fully, I knew:
it is too high. I cannot attain it.

It transcends all of human wisdom,
it evades my very knowledge.
It’s something I’d never even deserve,
and yet, somehow, I’ve completely owned it.

Fight Valiantly

Posted: March 27, 2015 in Prose
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One cannot simply cry out, “Lord! Deliver me from evil!”
when he himself has caused that evil to fall upon himself.
No one can pray, “Lead me not into temptation,”
and afterwards seek to be ensnared by that temptation.
You cannot ask God to make you grow in the faith
while you continuously neglect His means of grace.
You see, you just can’t ask someone to save you from burning
when you insistently keep on setting your own clothes on fire.

The Assurance Within

Posted: November 23, 2014 in Poems
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God knows we can’t be perfect on earth;
O my soul, why then do you despair?
The Lord understands we’re weak from birth;
Why then doubt his grace and loving care?

The Lord saves man not based on their works;
My soul, why do you doubt His promise?
God forgives, as was said in His Word;
Why tolerate those doubting feelings?

Know that the Lord, He is merciful;
Know this, that Christ Jesus is gracious.
In mercy, God forgives the sinful;
In grace He pardons the rebellious.

Why am I in turmoil inside me?
Oh my soul, I tell you, doubt no more!
Do you not see God’s ability
To change you down to your very core?

O my spirit, why has peace left you?
Believe God when He says He forgives.
Salvation’s joy, where have you gone to?
Hope in Christ, in the grace that He gives.

Doubt not, and no longer be cast down.
Depend upon Christ, and Christ alone
That on You, God may smile and not frown.
Cling, my soul, to His merciful throne.
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